Random Thoughts

Today is 5th of April...

ON FRIDAY NIGHTS... (muni muni nights)

Im sitting here at my aunt's flat watching d tube while writing these blog and inbetween eating Hette's gummy bunny and easter chocolates.. and reading a mag and talking to Hon.. haha... kmusta nman? im so out of focus today no?

I have nothing to do kc.. Usually when i was in pinas.. Friday night is a gimik night. Ke mag isa akong ggimik ke me kasama ako.. keri lang. as long as may napapala ako sa araw ng friday.. dpat I should be doing something fun and spontaneous. Its either im at the mall.. looking for a cd.. going to d parlor, buying clothes.. sipping coffee with friends.. meeting up my gurlfrenz.. sometimes goin to cinema with honey.. ull seldom see me home on a friday night.. but now, sitting here at d flat is just one of my blessings.. i talk to myself. i talk to God more often. I felt closer to HIM at the same time..

Me on being a dreaMER.. (im still a dreamer)
.. its free of charge.. it keeps me goin.. makes me feel like i have to be always at my best. so far i know im almost there.. almost.. hndi nman sa ambisyosa ako. i know when its time for me to make a move. to make dat big leap. and when to wait for God's perfect time.

Me on being frugal..
.. haha.. i can almost hear you say.. tin kau b yan? hehe.. bket wala n ba ko karapatan mgbago? im quite ashamed to admit this. pro lately lang tlga ako natuto mag handle ng finances ko. Mganda pala tlga yun early in your life e 2matayo ka na mag isa sa sarili mong paa. Well not actually kc im with my relatives. hehe..

ang tin2 before... everyday you can see me at mega mall or galeria.. wearing the latest fashion trend. having the latest cosmo mag. collecting sandals and shoes.. im sure nabu2lok na ngayon ang mga collections ko. ive got tons of collectibles of kikay books.. some of them nka2long sa growth ko some of them i felt na nasayang lang ang money ko. i have lots of bags.. na wala ng gumagamit ngayon.. ihave collections of angel figurines.. grabeng sandamakmak ang clothes ko.. good thing napakinabangan ng pmangkin ko. mind you i dont buy any clothes tlga. yun branded lang.. and every week i should buy new clothes tlga.. its a must for me. adik na nga ako e. d kumpleto ang linggo ko pag walang sumthin new. hehe..

After meeting Bo Sanchez...
... well.. hndi ganun kabilis ang transformation ko.. it took me almost 2 years to change my habit.. kundi pa nga ako nkapag abroad.. sa tingin ko mhhirapan ako bguhin yun spending habits ko.. nakakatuwa kc now.. cnusunod ko na tlga lhat ng tips ni bo sanchez at ni francisco colayco. sna pag uwi ko ill have a chance to meet them personally. i wanna thank them kc super nag grow ako spiritually and financially. it was not easy at first pro nakaya ko nman. so far nka survive ako. First year ko plang dito ang inisip ko agad ay ang credit card ko. hehe.. pnung d ko maiicp cla mama kaya nakatanggap ng billing statement ko. Im thankful n din ke mama.. updated ako sa billings ng card ko.. hehe.. I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT I AM a 25 YRS OLD CHICK... A DEBT FREE CHICK... (Lord I wouldnt be able to do it on my own.. i thank you..) shempre.. aside sa will power ko not to spend c Lord din ang tumulong sken ma overcome ang pgging big spender ko.. i know what to prioritize na.. its not too late for me to start my dreams. atlist maaga pa lng natuto ako on my own, through experience about the importancer of money. kc the more na pinapangaralan ako ng parents ko about money d more i spend. ewan ko ba.. mas n22wa ako gumastos pag pnag ssbihan ako.. pro now i see to it that i make track records of my spendings.. hehe.. adik na nga ako sa dami kong lists and files.. prang gus2 ko nga mag aral ng accounting ulit e. hehe. panalo ako sa pag babalanse ng dr and cr.. enjoy pa ako sa numbers. hehe.. but my figures arent millions yet.. dream on kid.. hehe.. soon.. dont worry dadating din tyo jan.. promise.. pag na earn ko na ang ating 1st million(insha Allah) i will let you know.. ok? and I will share my success story din.. Frustrated advisor ako e.. Actually, muntik ko na m2pad yun. kaso i chose not to.. kasi i dont feel good enough at that time.. I feel as if I need a good advisor myself. Sbe ko nga nun kay Lord, pag succesful na ako gus2 ko ishare yun sa mga students.. gus2 kong maging speaker sa school. God is good enough.. year 2005.. somebody called me para mag speech sa mga 4th year hs student about career..

Career adviser.. 2005
... i just moved to a new company.. as in kakalipat ko lng when La Consolacion called me to become one of the career adviser sa mga graduating students.. ID LOVE TO tlga.. naghanda n nga ako ng speech eh.. kaso yun boss kong c wbr.. lge nakabantay sken. d 2loy ako nkaaattend.. nag paalam din ako s knya. sbe nya sken mas inuna ko pa dau yun kesa sa career ko. ang sad ko nun day na yun.. (TIN, EXCUSES2 NNMAN HA?!) honestly, gus2 ko tlga.. pangarap ko yun e. Lord sorry kun d ko n2pad yun promise ko syo. sbe ko pag successful na ako mag iispeaker ako infront of students.. I will inspire them.. pro nabigo kita.. sorry po. Lord, pls give me another chance please?

at that time:
I felt... wow!! yey! ako? christine jane raymundo? mag ta talk infront of graduating students? hehe.. e kelangan ko nga ng taga payo e.. i mean.. sa totoo lang.. i dont think na ok ang career ko nun tym na yun.. i felt so bored kya nga ako lumipat ng company.. after switching careers...dun unti2 nag start mag climb ng ladder ang aking career kya lng with the wrong company nman.. sa tingin ko.. nung time n yun. i felt insecure pa.. i dont feel im succesful.. im quite lost p din at that time.. kaya i dont like to share my confusion sa mga students.. cgro din at that time i dont feel confident about my achievements. Nag set kc ako ng goals sa sarili ko na hndi ko nman na meet. i failed myself.

Pagninilay nilay ko nun time na yun..
ano kaya nkita nila sken? they must ve seen something in me.. something good otherwise they wouldnt call me for nothing.. pro ano kaya yun? til now d ko pa din alam kc di ko cla sinipot. ang sad ko nun gabing yun.. kc nabigo ko c Lord.. nabigo ko ang hundreds of students na sana na enlighten ko about life, about God and about their careers.. nabigo ko din ang sarili ko.. kc im not confident enough. i still doubt my capabilities. i felt kc that im not the right person for that.. pro dpat i felt honored pa nga instead of shying away.. biruin mo sikat ako date dahil sa pagiging problem child sa school.. dhel madalas akong laman ng guidance office.. Sna may 2nd chance pa. Now, I know mas kilala ko na sarili ko. I understand life better compared last 2 years ago.. Alam ko hndi pa huli ang lahat. Now, I really have to think that MY LIFE STORY IS TRULY A SUCCESS... THAT MY CAREER IS A SUCCES..