Goodbye Baby Kent Huab.. we'll miss you

The other nigth i dreamt about losing my front tooth. There was a saying (sorry hndi po ako mpamahiin but i rmember some elder pipz telling me.. na pag nanaginip ka about losing your tooth.. it means somebody's going to die.) I dont really believe in such things.. i told maryll and dick about my dream.. the next morning.. i got offline messages from my cousin.. telling me that kent huab (baby of my cousin already died that morning).

may sakit xa sa liver. im not quite sure what kind of illness.. but i know its really serious kc we were told that it was the first case in the philippines.. and undergoing operation would be around 2 million pesos.. i know how painful it is for a mom to c her child suffering too much.. i couldnt even stand to see a child feeling so much pain.. i know that God took him away so that he will feel free from all these pains..

To the little angel that i havent met but only heard of. You will always be remembered by tita kris.. I will always pray for you. Its the least that i can do (I havent heard u laugh, never heard your cries, never saw your toothless grin, never carried you in my arms ~God's embrace will be better than mine.. but you know kent that all your family is here for you, ready to support you) Always be happy wherever you are. I give whatever contribution i can offer you... so you can finally go to a peaceful place.. i love you kiddo.. we will miss you..

I know these is really a big blow to our family.. especially Lerit's side.. Its d 1st time we've lost somebody dear to us.. Sa super dami ng struggle na knakaharap ng family nmen.. I know Kent is one of God's instrument para magkaayos ayos na ang family nmen.. Kent is really an angel sent by God.. Thank you little angel and goodbye.. mwah.. love you.. God bless you..

On Wedding Preps

My mom will book Robert Camba na on Saturday... Hmm.. what made us decide on them?

1 wla tlga xa sa list ko before of major suppliers.. pro dhel un din kc caterer nila myron at raquel kaya ive decided to get them na din.. mang gaya dau ba? ahehe
2 sbe nila oks nman dau ang set up
3 masarap dau ang food
4 no 12% evat..
5 no service charge

freebies? i dunno kun ano2.. but he will be giving 6 door limousine dau for me.. yey! insha ALLAH..
6 pag kasali dau ako sa 3 first bookers.. i can avail their FREE TIFFANY CHAIRS.
sana nga free noh for month of august 2008...
7 nag food taste n cla mama.. msarap dau..
8 if we booked 250... and mag exceed ang guests d na ssingilin yun excess ng per head.. so ok un d b?

i will let you know by saturday kung nkapag book n c mama.. atlist 3 na sa major suppliers ang na book nmen...

still clueless p din ako sa motif...hehe.. chaka na.. still have 1 yr & 3mos & 21 days... long way to go.. kaya petiks petiks muna (sana more tips to come for me & nelson)

Empty your Bank Account

Surprised? At first i was surprised too. Anyway before i dont have any savings at all. So im not really bothered with this. hehe.

Being a credit card addict has taught me to handle finances well.. Finally after sometime ive decided to become debt free... fast..

One advice i got from was from Bo and Ric...
... EMPTY your BANK ACCOUNT and pay off all your debts..
... If you'll worry that you'll not have any savings at all.. well, ill tell you that you dont really have money now..
... the bank's interest is only about 1% to 3% but your creditor's are charging you more than the bank's interest rate..

Before you start saving... pay off all your debts first..

ive done this formula.. and yes.. its really effective..

1. First I allocated the amount of money for my creditors..
2. Have faith..
3. Set the date in the calendar when you're goin to finish paying all your debts...

It took me 1 year to finish paying my debts.. And now im religiously sending money to my blessings bank account..

Setting Goals

First.. SET A POSITIVE GOAL FOR YOURSELF...

...we will save for our wedding next year.. yey! (help us God)
...i will save to buy our first TOYOTA INNOVA and TOYOTA VIOS for our business
...i will save to buy house & lot in Pasig
...save for our kid's future (naks.. advanz nman)

2nd... Set a date for achieving your goal

.... July 2008.. (we will be saving more than 300k for our wedding..)
.... September 2008... start our own business.. (galing noh? ryt after d wedding meron na agad)
.... September 2009... downpayment for the house & lot
.... September 2009...

3rd Write it Down..

Keep your goal infront of you.. focus on the benefits you'll derive instead of the sacrifices you have to endure. Taped it on your dresser.. on ur bedroom.. on your laptop.. Keep reminding yourself of your goal..

4th Stay Focused
if your goal is to have house & lot. read things about houses..
if your goal is about having a grand wedding at a lesser cost.. do some research

May God bless all our life dreams...

SIMPLE DOESNT MEAN EASY

I came from a middle class family. We ate 3x a day(sometimes more than 3x a day). Good food prepared by my mom.. fruits on the table.. fresh juice prepared by my dad.. and yet i chose to leave the place i called home..

why? because i know i have to learn to learn on my own. being the youngest i had the priviledge of asking help from my parents & 2 brothers 2 buy something for me.. My salary at that time? good enough to spend for my luho.. lgeng luho ko dapat muna ang mauna.. i always say.. i deserve it.. i really deserve this.. until i got tired.. kaya e2.. nag abroad kme ni nelson..

i got tons of bills to pay.. i was paying 20k+ for my credit card.. 40k for my brother.. 15k to my mom.. at the age of 23 yun ha? hehe.. our salary here? sapat lng para sa single.. but i was to able pay off my debt last year.. Thank God.. di ko nmalayan.. at the age of 25.. debt free ako.. i had too sacrifice a few things.. like my spending habit.. sobrang grabeng pag titipid gnawa ko for myself.. and then at the start of 2007.. mas lalo akong ngtipid.. because we are saving for our wedding.. (sna nga for our business) pro i know we can achieve it aftr the wedding nman.. for 1 yr & 9 mos.. hubby & me will be able save more than 300,000+ pesos.. Gus2 pa nga sna nmen mag part time job.. kaso.. limited lng d2 sa work nmen.. (hopefully sna ihire kme ng good company wd good pay & benefits after ng contract nmen sa company nmen)INSHA ALLAH..

1. Once a month n lng kme nag ma malling ni nelson
2. Ala kme tv.. we can afford to buy one but we prefer not 2 buy it kc d nman nmen xa priority e.
3. Once in awhile we spoil ourselves din nman but not 2 d extent na super extravagant spending nman..
4. tithings...
5. twice a month n lng din ako mag load.. since we have internet connection nag cha chat n lng kme ni hon..
6. i dont buy books.. i re read all the books.. i write blog na lng..


LIVE A SIMPLE LIFE.. SAVE AND ACCUMULATE.. START NOW!

3 ways to create savings

I happen to read this article from ric edelman..

Savings Creator #1 Pay yourself first
Fact One: You spend all your money every month, and have nothing left to save.
Fact Two: You can’t change Fact One.

I used to rmember that after pay day.. i go to the mall to buy the latest trend.. buy small trinkets and other kikay stuff.. then d rest i pay credit card bills and buy prepaid cards.. d money left will be used for my 15 days allowance..

so do u think may na save ako? hehe.. wla..

so i changed the formula...

savings=salary-expenses

Pay yourself first... dont worry that you will run out of money.. kc i know even b4 e tlgang nasho short ka.. so better na mshort ka na may savings.. than ma short ka ng no savings at all..

Savings creator #2: Your future in a peanut can

I was taught early in life to save moolah using a piggy bank but as i grew older i was more fond of breaking it instead of saving money.. hehe.. now? im back to basic.. im saving money using a piggy bank given by my aunt & uncle..

ill get my hubby to save as well.. I CALL IT OUR FINANCIAL BLESSINGS ACCOUNT.. lhat ng tippings na mtatanggap nmen and yun mga unexpected money dun nmen ilalagay..

the GOAL? just to save first and let it accumulate... afterwards we will use it for our first business.. (10k dhs to be exact)

Savings Creator #3: Spend Your Way to Wealth

Spot spending on thing that detoriates.. (haha.. biktima ako n2)

ok.. cge spend your money but be wise.. Buy things that rise in value. Start shopping for things that make money for you..

GUILTY ako d2..kc i love buying on first impulse kc.. like clothes.. perfume..

pro now.. im ms FRUGALITY.. i love buying things for my family too.. (cge na nga.. ill buy my mom gold jewelry)...

i dream of being a financial analyst.. financial advisor.. financial planner.. haha.. kaya i shld start now..

GOODLUCK TIN!

bits and pieces

I am sitting at my fave desk (gro table) ahehe.. thinking about d past and contemplating everything that has happened to me..

Over the years i had made major changes for myself. I am not talking about undergoin cosmetic surgery.. I am talking about how i viewed my life.. how i had lived my life.. and how ive learned from all my past mistakes..

During my high school days.. i was regarded as a problem child, the one who will most likely to get banged, pregnant. the one who will get married right after highschool.. the one who always get hooked with bad boys.. I was not the smart kid in class. I also had my shares of 75 grades.. yet even if im not the star of the class, i am the happiest kid.. i laugh my heart out and i like meeting new friends.. I look at myself.. and i see a beautiful person. haha umiral nnman pgging conceited ko. well i was ordinary lookin girl.. pro everybody really seems to think i am beautiful.. haha. its true pala how u see yourself will reflect in your aura..

So ayun na.. after finishing hs.. off i go to see a different world..
College days.. Dun ko lang na realize na di lang pala ako class B.. class C.. well i didnt know that i was really smart.. kc i have the notion before na im not destined to be ABOVE AVERAGE..
1st year college ako.. History class under Mr ternida.. one of the terror profs sa ceu.. I was not afraid of him.. well slight lang.. kc pinahiya nya ako noon sa room.. ang daldal ko dau kc.. ahehe. and after that lhat ng classmate ko takot n din s knya lalo na pag may surprise graded recitation.. that led me to strive harder on my studies.. I never come to class ill prepared.. and im not backing off pag pinapatayo nya ako at bnabato nya ako ng too much questions.. Im confident sa mga nalalaman ko. And sbe ko sa sarili ko.. MR TERNIDA IM NOT AFRAID OF YOU. SHEMPRE PA.. ive done my research kc.. and there are times na imbis n ako ang nasa hot seat.. xa ang tnatanong ko.. haha.. galing ko noh? since then we became close ng prof nmen terror.. kya from dat moment never nya ako tnatanong.. ayaw nya ako tawagin for recitation.. hehe.. im so proud of myself.. lalo na i was voted as the class muse.. ayoko sabihin nyang mganda ako pro wala nman utak.. haha.. Lhat ng grades ko sa lhat ng subjects.. puro UNO.. pro pinag hirapan ko po yun. as in ngpupuyat ako para mag aral para pag dating sa school. You will see me sa class. talking.. laughing.. eating.. but never nila ako nkitang nag rereview.. bsta pa easy2 lng ako.. pro pag dating ng results ng grade.. im always on TOP.

my college life led me to believe that I AM THE BEST..

My LIFE DREAMS

25 blissful yrs.. aint i lucky to be living dis glamour life?

When I was 23 yrs old.. i am the happy go lucky jane.. I had a nice job.. haha. or so i think so.. e fave ako boss ko.. so spoiled ako.. di ako nwawalan ng pera kc anjan c daddy boss ko.. ahehe.. i feel so blessed kc khet i dont ask for money.. immediately God supplies.. kaso i dunno wer ko dnala ang pera ko..

after sometime.. i got too tired na din.. i wanted a challenging job.. good paying job.. and i wanted to work as marketing manager.. product manager.. medrep.. bsta something that is associated sa sales & marketing. I believe na swerte kc ako sa sales e. And God supplied me all the tools which i need to move 1 step forward to attain my goals.. nging medrep ako.. AM i happy? yes.. sbe ko noon kay hubby.. this is it.. this is the answer 2 our life dreams.. it was good while it lasted.. I LOVE MY JOB.. and the company loves me..nkakatarget ako.. and i get lots of praises from colleagues.. from doctors.. and from my bosses.. ASSET na ko sa company. still... alam ko that i can do better than that..

suddenly a life changing experience happened..
.. after 6 months.. God gave me one of the best tools that will bring US again.. 1 step closer to him.. i had a job abroad. wowowee!! Lord THANK YOU! at that time.. madaming pinoy ang ngkakandautang makapunta d2.. Lord thank you tlga.. naniniwala tlga ako if you wanted something the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

I quit my dream job.. and pursued a different career.. and moved from philippines to UAE.. (God's calling.. i know he wanted me to serve him here) and shempre dream ko din mkapag work abroad tlga..

WHATS my motivation?
at first.. naiintriga lng tlga ako about DUBAI..
my cousin ate ching went here by herself (i didnt know n d2 na din xa ngkapamilya)
irene.. asked me to follow her here in UAE
lorane nagal moved to qatar

and i said to myself.. Lord, thy will be done..
and u know what? my gus2 na mag hire sken.. and they wanted me to work asap.. yey!!!

Kaya khet alam kong impocbleng mging millionaire kme ni nelson nxt yr... i still believe na kaya nmen.. walang impcble...

Goodluck and God bless tin...mwahhh..

continuation

Today is APril 10... 30th wedding anniversary of my parents..

mama & dada.. este daddy.. happy anniv.. i wish i was there to celebrate your special wedding anniversary. I am thankful to God that he has blessed me with loving parents. grabe dami din ang sacrifices na gnawa nila for us. I love you both..

23... yey! i love 23.. im blessed to have met Nelson my hubby to be as my fiance.. i prayed that God gave me a very smart, super cpag, super bait, super love ako na partner in life.. true enuf.. sept 23, 2001.. dumating xa..

24 i was able to eat pork today.. hehe.. considering na and2 ako sa gitnang silangan..
25 walang tip today... ok lng.. marami nman natuwa sa service ko.. sa pgging helpful ko.. they gave me a hug.. d matatawaran ng pera ang sincerity ng taong n2lungan ko.. naks.. knina n lng naiinis ako.. hehe.. pro narealize ko na life is not all about money..
26 knina nbuhayan nnman ako ng dugo... y? kc may naiicp nnman akong goal nmen in life.. may pangarap nnman ako.. kmusta sa dami ng pangarap. as ive said b4.. libre mangarap. i dunno how & wen 2 start on it.. but i know mkakaya nmen ni son. God will provide.. God will give us manna in the desert..
27 im back to my old self again.. thank you bloggie.. positive nnman outlook ko in life..
28 today... is 1 yr, 4 mos & 6 days.. before our wedding day.. yey! tagal pa pro blessed pa din kme kc may enuf time kme to save for the budget..

pede tom nman ulit? hehe.. gnite.. sleepy n din ako.. at mis ko n din bed ko.. pramis ill keep u posted..

Counting blessings

hi there bestpal..

anyway, ill start my day by saying belated HAPPY EASTER. I didnt go to churh yesterday.. Lord sorry po ulit.. lge n lng ako nag sosorry.. sna ull never get tired of me..

Well.. i have nothing much to do thats why i feel like counting my hundred blessings..

1 I have a very loving and supportive family.
2 I have understanding, sweet, supportive and loving fiance
3 I have super friends who are always there whenever i need them.
4 I have A GREAT GOD whom I love.. I offer him my all and my life..
5 I have a very exciting job...
- they hired me as a Guest Relations Officer (sosyal no?)
- i have the priviledge to eat in the hotel's main resto (what more can you ask for?) mas sosy d b?
- i get to interact with RUSSIAN AND GERMAN guests.. who would have thought that I will be serving Europeans?
-at the same time.. bayani pa ako.. OFW E..
- i am earning more than what I need.. but still i need more money para sa future..
- i can give more tithings to God compared when I was in Pinas.. Thank you Lord.. I hope i can give back 20% more to 100%... =)
- i receive more blessings like tippings.. yey!!
6 I have my own laptop.. (date pangarap lng ngayon reality na)
7 I have very nice celfon. (date pangarap lng.. reality na xa ngayon)
8 I am smart, friendly and responsible
9 I believe in myself
10 I am very confident that i can do whatever i want to do.
11 I live near the ocean..
12 I am strong willed
13 I am able to save money without sacrificing happiness.
14 People admire me for being an achiever. AM I? hehe.. i think I AM!
15 I have free access of internet here at the hotel.. yey!
16 I only pay 20 dhs internet fee for internet in our flat..yey! so cheap..
- sa pinas wala kmeng internet sa house and ala din computer n mbilis.. buti n lng may laptop n ko.. yey!
17 i have very cute pmangkin
18 i am a dreamer.. kaya sarap mangarap.. haha.. libre lng..
19 i am a good financial planner & analyst.. talent ko n yan ngayon.. thousand blessing tlga noh?
20 i can sing
21 i speak deutsch
grabe hirap isa isahin ng isang upuan lang.. tomorrow ang continuation pede? hehe...
oopppss pahabol
22 i reveived my bonus.. yey.. blessing d b?

continuation tomorrow.. promise.. work muna ako...
bye now...

On wedding update

hi again bloggie...

back to OUR WEDDING PREPS MODE...

April 4th dumating mom ni Hette from Germany.. I invited them for our wedding next year. I dont know if they will be able to come in Pinas..

Anyway, Im not that excited for the wedding preps kc we're still saving up for it palang. Im praying that God will provide for the wedding budget as his manna for us. Luckily enough.. God answered our prayers.. atlist some of it.. Thank you Lord. Finally, we have the money for Principal Sponsors wedding favors.. We will buy the Cup & Saucer Set.. for ninangs it will be 12dhsX10pcs=120... For ninongs.. 7 sands of UAE worth Dhs 8x10=80... So all in all.. Dhs 200.. Luckily we've raised budget for that..Galing sa mga tippings nmen ni son.. ALHAMDOOLILLAH.. thanks be to God.. i told nelson kc na we will save our tippings and then yun maiipon nmen yun ang pambili nmen ng giveaways.. Grabe noh? God provides tlga.. Hulog lng ng langit.. galing tlga..But Im giving back p din what is due to him through tithings. Actually may utang nga ako dun sa tippings savings nmen.. But I will pay it nman e. Eto pa ang another good news.. May bonus ako matatanggap. kaso half lng ng salary ko. Pro khet na half yun.. di ko din mpupulot basta basta lang yun noh.. sbe ko ke son bbili kme ng mediacom as a gift to our parents.. kaso. nag dadalawang icp ako. I might give him the watch na gus2 nya.. Gift ko n lng s knya.. Anyway, ayun na nga IM so MUCH THANKFUL dhel again.. he provided for us.. Lord we thank you tlga..
E2 pa another blessing.. My aunt just told us na xa na sasagot nun giveaways para sa 200 guest.. O di ba nkakatuwa? she will be helping me for the misallete and guestbook, bible cover and wine cover as well.. o di ba? another blessing.. Chaka my cousin Menggay will provide the band for the reception kaso ayaw ni hubby.. kc super mag baballoon na dau ang aming guest list. so ayun.. limited lng kc ang guest list nmen sa 230 pax.. haay.. I just hope mgkaron kme ng good caterer.. at yun swak lng sa budget.. =) 8 mos to go before the real wedding preps... Full blast n tlga kme by December.. todo preps na.. Sna lng e gumanda ang palitan ng dollar kontra piso.. hehe.. ang bad ko noh? yun lng..

Parting thought: im so blessed my Lord I can see you...

the weakest link

Today I attended the Tagalog mass.. It was quite refreshing. sobra.. Im thankful na khet d ako mxadong active sa church now e nkakapag worship p din ako sa solemn place.. atlist we found a catholic church nearby. Knowing that we are based on the Muslim country sobrang i felt blessed.. I know that somehow.. God is near.. I feel his presence. Khet na malayo ako sa family ko ok lng.. I feel at home pag nkikinig ako ng holy mass.. 1st time in my life na umiyak ako sa mass.. never ako umiiyak sa holy mass nun nasa pinas ako.. Being here has made me cling to God more than ever. He is my strenght..

Kaso.. these past few days.. i felt so weak.. Di po ako nkapag fasting.. I felt so awful. =( maybe im quite depress.. I dont know.. Im just so sorry.. patapos na ang holy week.. hayy... di ko din kc ma feel ang holy week d2. I felt like its just an ordinary day.. Im so sorry tlga Lord.. =(

Random Thoughts

Today is 5th of April...

ON FRIDAY NIGHTS... (muni muni nights)

Im sitting here at my aunt's flat watching d tube while writing these blog and inbetween eating Hette's gummy bunny and easter chocolates.. and reading a mag and talking to Hon.. haha... kmusta nman? im so out of focus today no?

I have nothing to do kc.. Usually when i was in pinas.. Friday night is a gimik night. Ke mag isa akong ggimik ke me kasama ako.. keri lang. as long as may napapala ako sa araw ng friday.. dpat I should be doing something fun and spontaneous. Its either im at the mall.. looking for a cd.. going to d parlor, buying clothes.. sipping coffee with friends.. meeting up my gurlfrenz.. sometimes goin to cinema with honey.. ull seldom see me home on a friday night.. but now, sitting here at d flat is just one of my blessings.. i talk to myself. i talk to God more often. I felt closer to HIM at the same time..

Me on being a dreaMER.. (im still a dreamer)
.. its free of charge.. it keeps me goin.. makes me feel like i have to be always at my best. so far i know im almost there.. almost.. hndi nman sa ambisyosa ako. i know when its time for me to make a move. to make dat big leap. and when to wait for God's perfect time.

Me on being frugal..
.. haha.. i can almost hear you say.. tin kau b yan? hehe.. bket wala n ba ko karapatan mgbago? im quite ashamed to admit this. pro lately lang tlga ako natuto mag handle ng finances ko. Mganda pala tlga yun early in your life e 2matayo ka na mag isa sa sarili mong paa. Well not actually kc im with my relatives. hehe..

ang tin2 before... everyday you can see me at mega mall or galeria.. wearing the latest fashion trend. having the latest cosmo mag. collecting sandals and shoes.. im sure nabu2lok na ngayon ang mga collections ko. ive got tons of collectibles of kikay books.. some of them nka2long sa growth ko some of them i felt na nasayang lang ang money ko. i have lots of bags.. na wala ng gumagamit ngayon.. ihave collections of angel figurines.. grabeng sandamakmak ang clothes ko.. good thing napakinabangan ng pmangkin ko. mind you i dont buy any clothes tlga. yun branded lang.. and every week i should buy new clothes tlga.. its a must for me. adik na nga ako e. d kumpleto ang linggo ko pag walang sumthin new. hehe..

After meeting Bo Sanchez...
... well.. hndi ganun kabilis ang transformation ko.. it took me almost 2 years to change my habit.. kundi pa nga ako nkapag abroad.. sa tingin ko mhhirapan ako bguhin yun spending habits ko.. nakakatuwa kc now.. cnusunod ko na tlga lhat ng tips ni bo sanchez at ni francisco colayco. sna pag uwi ko ill have a chance to meet them personally. i wanna thank them kc super nag grow ako spiritually and financially. it was not easy at first pro nakaya ko nman. so far nka survive ako. First year ko plang dito ang inisip ko agad ay ang credit card ko. hehe.. pnung d ko maiicp cla mama kaya nakatanggap ng billing statement ko. Im thankful n din ke mama.. updated ako sa billings ng card ko.. hehe.. I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT I AM a 25 YRS OLD CHICK... A DEBT FREE CHICK... (Lord I wouldnt be able to do it on my own.. i thank you..) shempre.. aside sa will power ko not to spend c Lord din ang tumulong sken ma overcome ang pgging big spender ko.. i know what to prioritize na.. its not too late for me to start my dreams. atlist maaga pa lng natuto ako on my own, through experience about the importancer of money. kc the more na pinapangaralan ako ng parents ko about money d more i spend. ewan ko ba.. mas n22wa ako gumastos pag pnag ssbihan ako.. pro now i see to it that i make track records of my spendings.. hehe.. adik na nga ako sa dami kong lists and files.. prang gus2 ko nga mag aral ng accounting ulit e. hehe. panalo ako sa pag babalanse ng dr and cr.. enjoy pa ako sa numbers. hehe.. but my figures arent millions yet.. dream on kid.. hehe.. soon.. dont worry dadating din tyo jan.. promise.. pag na earn ko na ang ating 1st million(insha Allah) i will let you know.. ok? and I will share my success story din.. Frustrated advisor ako e.. Actually, muntik ko na m2pad yun. kaso i chose not to.. kasi i dont feel good enough at that time.. I feel as if I need a good advisor myself. Sbe ko nga nun kay Lord, pag succesful na ako gus2 ko ishare yun sa mga students.. gus2 kong maging speaker sa school. God is good enough.. year 2005.. somebody called me para mag speech sa mga 4th year hs student about career..

Career adviser.. 2005
... i just moved to a new company.. as in kakalipat ko lng when La Consolacion called me to become one of the career adviser sa mga graduating students.. ID LOVE TO tlga.. naghanda n nga ako ng speech eh.. kaso yun boss kong c wbr.. lge nakabantay sken. d 2loy ako nkaaattend.. nag paalam din ako s knya. sbe nya sken mas inuna ko pa dau yun kesa sa career ko. ang sad ko nun day na yun.. (TIN, EXCUSES2 NNMAN HA?!) honestly, gus2 ko tlga.. pangarap ko yun e. Lord sorry kun d ko n2pad yun promise ko syo. sbe ko pag successful na ako mag iispeaker ako infront of students.. I will inspire them.. pro nabigo kita.. sorry po. Lord, pls give me another chance please?

at that time:
I felt... wow!! yey! ako? christine jane raymundo? mag ta talk infront of graduating students? hehe.. e kelangan ko nga ng taga payo e.. i mean.. sa totoo lang.. i dont think na ok ang career ko nun tym na yun.. i felt so bored kya nga ako lumipat ng company.. after switching careers...dun unti2 nag start mag climb ng ladder ang aking career kya lng with the wrong company nman.. sa tingin ko.. nung time n yun. i felt insecure pa.. i dont feel im succesful.. im quite lost p din at that time.. kaya i dont like to share my confusion sa mga students.. cgro din at that time i dont feel confident about my achievements. Nag set kc ako ng goals sa sarili ko na hndi ko nman na meet. i failed myself.

Pagninilay nilay ko nun time na yun..
ano kaya nkita nila sken? they must ve seen something in me.. something good otherwise they wouldnt call me for nothing.. pro ano kaya yun? til now d ko pa din alam kc di ko cla sinipot. ang sad ko nun gabing yun.. kc nabigo ko c Lord.. nabigo ko ang hundreds of students na sana na enlighten ko about life, about God and about their careers.. nabigo ko din ang sarili ko.. kc im not confident enough. i still doubt my capabilities. i felt kc that im not the right person for that.. pro dpat i felt honored pa nga instead of shying away.. biruin mo sikat ako date dahil sa pagiging problem child sa school.. dhel madalas akong laman ng guidance office.. Sna may 2nd chance pa. Now, I know mas kilala ko na sarili ko. I understand life better compared last 2 years ago.. Alam ko hndi pa huli ang lahat. Now, I really have to think that MY LIFE STORY IS TRULY A SUCCESS... THAT MY CAREER IS A SUCCES..